Sea of Love, by Cat Power.
nobody reads descriptions so this should be safely unread. i reached a milestone tonight, a million views on this video.
i write a confession, what happened. i started to take photographs to take my mind of a horrendous relationship breakup. i didn't want it to end but it did. it was the first time i felt so alone in this world. and then being without her mattered so much that it felt like i was dying.
This song was my anthem around the time. Cat Power it seemed, had suffered a similar fall from grace. it was and still is, a sad song.
this milestone then, a million views, makes me want to write something about why i uploaded this video in the first place, but the fact is that 95-99 % of viewers click on this video to hear Cat power sing Sea of love, and not view my pictures. of course that's why they click on it, they haven't heard of me, but they have watched Juno, and they have seen Cat Power on stage somewhere, or heard her voice on some friends' CD player. don't get me wrong, i am not insecure, i am totally confidant about my ability to take a photograph as a means to express myself. the music i use in my video merely aides the emotional connection, music has always done this.
i am nearing the end of my twenties. in a couple of months i will be thirty years of age. i don't have any children, and i don't have a partner. i make a living as a photojournalist and freelance photographer.
for as long as i can remember, i could never fit somewhere. there's nowhere i could call home. i barely recognise myself from the young man who entered university thinking that a formal education in psychology was going to make me happy, that this prescribed route was going to make me stop wondering, and actually live my life, instead of scratching at it, watching it.
the solace of a camera then seems in retrospect like an obvious thing to do, but as luck would have it, i finally found something that i was truly a natural at, expressing myself. you see i have a lot of pain. of course everyone and their dog has pain and i am no different, but what i find myself trying to do with the camera is just ignore everything that i have ever learned or experienced, just blissfully forget about the taxman, the banker, the things that make up the world around me, and just think about me.
when i take a photograph i am there, being hit by a wave, happy in a graveyard, in a box, or even a garden plastic rabbit, these are all expressions of myself. yes they exist and i didn't arrange them, but i am drawn to them as soon as i sense them, and for however long the scene is as such, i want to take a photograph of it, and when i do, i feel momentarily invigorated, an orgasmic sense of something recognised and understood and captured, a reflection of myself.
so from someone with no artistic background, via a Machiavellian relationship breakup, i find myself with the perfect medium to express myself with, the camera.
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Come with me
To the sea
The sea of love
I wanna tell you
I love you
Do you remember
When we met
That's the day
I knew you were my pet
I wanna tell you
I love you
Come with me
To the sea
The sea of love
I wanna tell you
I love you
Don't worry Raymond, we are kinda on the same boat, except I do draw.
I have no hard time to find a partner because people think I'm attractive, funny and an interesting person, but I don't think the same for them, my feelings are nothing more than friendship, and it pains me to deal such sadness to people I care. I'm not especially looking for someone, I have wonderful people beside me, but yet I feel awfully lonely and empty. My studies are too expansive for me, I have no purpose in life except drawing and make people I love happy. But somehow, this whole situation where I hurt them instead of protecting them, and this because they fall in love with me while I don't, pains me. And I feel alone.
See, our stories are very different and yet the result is the same : life is dead, but we can stop time just a moment, to appreciate what we do the best.
I hope you're going well, have a good day/evening ~
How are you doing now, Raymond? It’s been 11 years since you uploaded this clip, hope your doing well. Just came here cuz I remembered my ex-girlfriend, she cried on my shoulders hearing this song(watching Juno) and just really felt sentimental today, that’s all. Take care
Hello, Raymond. My name is Marianela and I'm from Argentina. It is true I came here for Cat Power but I do read descriptions. After reading yours, I watched the video again. Just wanted you to know that. I wish you the best of lucks.
Keep doing what you love. It has inspired me.
You’re not alone. There’s more of us out there than you know with nowhere to call home.
For me, it’s creating music and words.
Keep creating and those souls will find you. Art tends to bring the lost together in a way unlike any other.
I don't know if this is still an active account, but there's something I want to say to the little hope that it still is. I read your bio Ray and it blows my mind how 10 years later I can relate to how you were feeling back in 08' now. I don't know if life got better for you I hope it did but your bio pretty much described everything I'm feeling in life right now I'm 20 years old about to be 21 in a few months and I just got out of the biggest breakup I've ever had I've been with this person since I was 16 years old so not sure how to handle it. I will admit I have a lot of nihilistic views and that could be a huge reason on why I lost her and it's funny how over the years anytime her an me ever got into a fight I would always put this specific video on because I liked the pictures it always made me think of better days I had with her and how growing up sucks ass but being in love makes everything suck a little less I hadn't even thought about reading your bio until today I wish I would have there's so much I could have learned but never did an that's okay.
I relate to you with a camera but with poetry instead when I'm feeling down and blue and I feel like there's nothing left I always write a song or spoken word poem they may not always be the best and I may not show people them or record them but they helped me get through life so thank you for the beautiful pictures even though I'm sure you're a much better photographer now these pictures show me that even when you're alone life still goes on and there's nothing you can do to stop it good luck in your 40's Ray I hope your 30's were worth it....
Was introduced to Robert Plant's version by a beautiful flower and saw the song shape itself into our early honeymoon anthem, then everything fractured and as I fell from love's grace, Cat Power's version caught me and soothed my wounded heart. She gave these lyrics purpose again for me - I remember when we first met, just wish the flower would too. It's beautiful, the ups and downs, all of it. Thank you for loving.
Geez man. Not gonna lie, I didn't read the description till the second time I watched the video. Reading your story made me tear up. Happy you found something that makes you happy. You deserve it, everyone does. Thank you for sharing.
I wanted to see if this was still here.
I found this video years ago, as you would alone at night in your apartment and read the description. I sought out the song for how I felt at the time in of my life and didn't know where it would go. I read the description and was blown away. I felt a kin to the feeling of the author and reflected how would things be , how could things be with the person who I was feeling a similar but separate feeling over. The author's words and photos felt very genuine, and rare to stumble a peak into. Rare to perfectly communicate this to others. Right now I wanted to see if this was still here. I'm lying in bed next to the same person that made me feel that way years ago. We're still not married and he's said something that makes scared or hurt about the future. It's not his intent nor fault but I feel the way I feel to hear the news that I will possible see him even less. And I thought of this video and story. I feel certain this author is with someone now. I wonder how things have changed and that is to say so much has and that is to say: life has just been what it has been so much more that it was before. It's not 2013. It's not even 2017. Whatever limbo you feel in your life, changes too. I don't know why I wanted to share this. Maybe bc I wanted to connect the time and everything in between. I dint listen to it again, but I want to make sure this magic still existed and so did their story and treasure. Maybe holding onto these things is what allows us to feel love and life later. An awareness. An appreciation. Who knows where to make your next step. Who knows where it goes. T
Read the description. And normally, I am not one to comment. But your words provoked a few thoughts (not that it matters): I'm sorry for your breakup and hope you've found your place. If not, I hope you've created one where wanderers such as yourself (hell, myself too) can feel....connection. To life itself and everyone/everything in it, for better or worse. The ability to feel is a mysterious thing, but it really helps build an appreciation towards life, such as the way you found solace through the lens of your camera.
Cat Power is the Queen of Sad, and I love her for it.
Just so you know, OP, you’re not alone in being alone and feeling alone. I’m in a similar situation now. But it’s quite amazing that you’ve found something that’s your own, that you’ve carved out a little space of the world with your camera. Cherish that.
My favorite song in the world. This song makes me think of how one day my mom and everyone else that is special to me will one day not be here, and this song just makes me think of every good memory I have with them and how that time is already gone, yet at the same time I see myself getting married to this song.
Sorry, due to my days in adult contemporary and country radio I can't enjoy this. Cheesiest way to gain airplay was to release a new version of a previous hit. No problem with hearing a cover version at a live concert, but for an artist but for an artist to record it to try to squeeze another nickel out of an old warhorse like this? No thanks. BTW I enjoy some of 'Ms Power's work; and her mom is a casual acquaintance of my mom"s.
When I first heard this song I was going through a lot. My family was becoming homeless and falling apart. But I had my dog and my cat. My cat was only a year old and my dog was only 3. I used to sing this to them every night.. Now I only get to visit them when I can make the time and make it to them. They are separate as well. My dog is getting to be old.. I can see it, it hurts to admit but I haven't been making anywhere near the effort I should've been to see her.. she's depressed.. Now hearing this song as cradle my frail old Lily.. it breaks my heart.. I'm sobbing. But I sang it to her again while I could.. I don't think she understands how much she means to me.. My dog has been through hell and back with me.. I hope I can make up to her all the time I missed..
Beautiful. Thanks for sharing your story. I think everyone is prone to feeling like they don't fit in some way or another; we live our lives alone and singular. I appreciate that you've found your medium and are able to enjoy life through this lens.
I just wanted to say I've been be listening to this video and loving these pictures for the past 8 years or so. I always read the description and I can't decide if I do only because it says, no one ever reads descriptions, or if it's because I always do read them.
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